And I mentioned I was going to use Future Me to write an email to my future self?
I spent some time today writing this out. The below is an email I have written to myself that will be delivered to my inbox when I have completed my half marathon and shed the final 20kg.
And who better to share it with, than you lovely lot........
I am so bloody proud of you. I'll bet you are tired today, hey? The half marathon: I knew you could do it, and you did a brilliant time! Well done. All of that money that you raised for Captain Starlight: your a legend. Well done.
Doesn't it feel brilliant? Not only the running of the half marathon, but more the way that you now know you can truly do anything that you set your mind to, and finish it with such an amazing gesture.
You decided to believe you could move to a place of physical instinctive eating, and you have. You have made it happen. Well done.
Now you eat like "normal" people eat. Just from hunger. The only thing that prompts you to eat is genuine physical hunger. The only time you think about food is when your stomach is actually rumbling! How cool is that?!
You know how Lexie eats? And how Andrew eats? How they totally do not think about food at all, until they are genuinely hungry? THAT IS YOU, NOW! How liberating is that?! I know that you feel totally free, and relaxed around food now. Wonderful.
Lucy, the way you have tackled this weight loss and fitness thing has been phenomenal. I know it has felt as if it has taken a really long time, but it is only three years.
Three years, and you have not only got down to your goal weight of 65kg, but you have done it properly. No fads. Just eating right and moving more.
I know how challenging it has been to address the more emotional side of the journey. Tough.
But rest assured that you booked yourself in as a huge project and you have completed the project with grace and dignity and integrity. On budget and on time, to the highest quality standards. That in itself is a remarkable and inspirational achievement.
Hold onto this now. Treasure it, and the way it feels. You have the absolute right to feel this good, this free.
I know you know that you can maintain this weight and this fitness and this body shape and this clothes size SO easily.
Remember the time between January 2009 and May 2010? When you gave up smoking and all the dramas with your Mum? Then Charlie had his accident? In all that time, you maintained your weight. That is amazing! You are a master at the maintenance. Have no fear on that score.
And now that you only ever think to eat with physical instinct, maintaining this weight will come absolutely naturally. You will not have to even think about it at all. It's a breeze!
Because it is second nature to only eat when you are truly hungry, and because you love exercise, and because you are in such an unconsciously competent space with regard to intake and output, your weight will always remain stable at 65kg, or even less. You're a comfortable size 10 now, and this is the size you will always be. A toned and beautiful and confident size 10.
OH! I forgot to remind you: good luck with your surgery! It was such a good move to plan this surgery when you had lost the 20 kilos through 20:20:20. And now that additional lose flappy skin will go, and your recovery is going to be an utter doddle for you! What an amazing and tangible reward.
Congratulations. You have done it. I am so very proud and happy for you.
And Happy Flog Yo Blog too!