Wednesday, 30 June 2010

Justin Langer and a huge Thank You

Whilst kicking up my heels, last week, at my very own pity party, I failed to note that I had hit 250 followers.

And in Aussie and Diminishing tradition, I would like to mark this milestone in my usual sporting fashion.........

(For all my non-Aussie followers, sorry. I know you all glaze over and switch off and bounce away as soon as I mention cricket. But I love it..........)

Humble Aussie cricketer who was the silent achiever?

The steely nuggetty little left handed batsman who had a reputation for grinding away in order to open up for Australia? Some said a plodder, but did those same critics realise he holds a better strike rate than notably "sexier" batsman such as Mark Waugh and  Damien Martyn?

In partnerships he was solid and motivating and unstoppable: so a more gracious and determined and more collaborative batsman you will struggle to find.

His top score of 250 runs against England at the MCG (in the 2002-03 Ashes series) was a record breaker.

He retired in 2007, and I still miss him. I give you Justin Langer.

And I also need to say a very heartfelt thank you.

Last week I felt like shite, and I very nearly didn't blog. But I have made a commitment to blog daily, so that meant blogging about feeling like crap.

The comments and emails and Tweets and Facebook messages of love and support that have I received are just amazing. I am truly touched. So thank you. To everyone who reached out, thank you.

I am gradually getting out of my fog. More on that soon.

In between times:

Away with the jelly beans.....

I am not here. I'll be back later.

I am too busy randomly telling all over at

It's saucy. Go there.

Tuesday, 29 June 2010

Giveaway Winner!

My last giveaway was for a pamper.........

Thank you to the gorgeous Maz of Maz-a-licious I am able to include some soft and gentle washers that are the best facial cleansing wipes in the world. And work perfectly with the delicious Strawberry Body Wash and Body Lotion.

The candle is an Eco-Soya Soy candle which are my personal favourite in a soothing essence.

And the lucky winner is:

Jess at Healthy Happenings

Thank you to all that entered!

Jess, can you email me your postal address please?

Perfectionist - is that good or bad?

I suspect I am a little bit of a perfectionist. During a meltdown last week, a friend (who I trust, a lot) suggested that I am my own worst enemy and that I have perfectionist traits.

This can be a good thing, of course, as well as a bad thing. And this is an issue that has been nagging away at me.

Trying to sort out, in my head, the pros and cons of my apparent perfectionism, and how to address it, has been an interesting head fuck exercise over the past week.

The upsides to this trait, the characteristics that I want to defend to the hilt, are:
  • These "perfectionist" traits have stood me in really good stead for the past 40 years
  • Why settle for mediocrity when you can be really bloody good?
  • If something is worth doing, is it not worth doing well? Properly?
  • I like the feeling of success, it makes me feel wonderful. Hell, I love it.
  • I am recognised, occasionally, for being competent at everything I do, and I love that recognition.
  • I get a lot done and I do it well. I tend to be hugely productive.
  • It makes me feel proud to realise that pretty much everything I ever set out to achieve, I complete. And I complete it well.

But the downsides to perfectionist tendencies:

  • The irrational belief that me and my environment must be perfect - this is unrealistic and exhausting.
  • This "striving to be the best", to reach the ideal and to never make a mistake - this is simply too much pressure.
  • This habit that keeps me constantly alert to the imperfections, failings, and weakness in myself - is this just plain arrogant?
  • The  level of consciousness that keeps me ever vigilant to any deviations from the norm, the "rules" or the way things are "supposed to be" - this is so tiring all the time, and more than a little obsessive.
  • The underlying motive present in the fear of failure, and fear of rejection: if I am not perfect I will fail and I might be rejected by others. This is just sad.
  • It is an inhibiting factor that keeps me from making a commitment to change habitual, unproductive behavior out of fear of not making the change "good enough" - this is see where I am going with this?

As I mentioned, this issue has been nagging away at me. Picking at my brain, but I have simply not been able to gain any clarity on it all. I can hear some bells tinkling, but I cannot see the wood for the trees and I almost do not want to face analysing this because I am so up against it and in the middle of it all. I feel like I need a total brain declutter.

Again, the thoughts are crowding my head so much that I cannot dissemble them, but they scare me and I cannot get rid of them either.

But, it feels better to have bullet pointed all the scrambled thoughts, so thank you for
indulging me in my homespun therapy of self.........

Post It Note Tuesday

Monday, 28 June 2010

Point & Shoot - Lexie Laughing

Yesterday was wintry. But very clear and sunny & bright. Lovely husband had the kids outside gardening all afternoon, and they just blossomed.

And Lexie laughed, like only she can, with her whole body & soul.

I could learn from her, I really could.

Sunday, 27 June 2010

Sunday Citar

Every Sunday for a while now, I have the pleasure of popping over to see Tabitha at Fresh Mommy. Her blog is just gorgeous. It's a classy blog. Her tag line is "every day is a fresh start", which I love. Her blog always makes me feel better.

So as usual I am playing Sunday Citar with Tabitha.

This seems to fit with where I am at at the moment.

Just Me

The lovely Sarah over at Just Me has a new meme going.

It's a nice and easy and fun one.

A photo of ourselves. Just Me.

My son Charlie had an open session at kindy last week, and HE took this snap of me. He also made the delightful crown I have on my head too, bless him.

To iron or not to iron.........

My ironing habits have borne the brunt of a lot of some criticism. People tell me not to bother. I hear you, I really do. But I can't not iron. I love the way everything looks all ironed and smooth. I love the way it smells, all hot and clean.
But, for me, if in doubt, iron.

That is so so tragic, I know, I know.

I can hear the comments all over the place: "But Lucy, why iron?"

"What is this iron you speak of?"

"Who irons?!"

"Ironing is bad for your mental health!"

Me. I do. Iron. I iron, and I am proud.

Every single week, I attack two big full baskets of this families clothes with the iron. Nearly 100 items a week get ironing.

Most weeks I hate the idea of the chore that looms, but I still do it. Every week. And it gives me a lot of satisfaction.
I just can't not iron.

What can I say? I like the clothes, on all of us, to look and feel nice when we put them on. I like the way all the pressed and folded and hanging clothes look in our wardrobes. I love the way it makes getting dressed so much quicker and easier.

If I am up to date with the ironing, I feel in control. (Does that make me sound like a nutter? Probably.)

Did you know that in some areas, women all gather in a lounge room with all their irons and all their ironing boards and all stand round in a circle and iron and iron and iron and gossip together? Flat out, ironing all day. Whilst other folk drop their baskets of ironing off to them? How cool.

Here's some ironing tips. Laugh if you want.

•Do your ironing in the bedroom. You'll be able to use the bed to sort your laundry, and you'll have hangers close at hand in the closet. Especially good if you have a TV in your bedroom......

•Cut your ironing time by putting a piece of aluminum foil under the ironing board cover. The foil will reflect heat so you're actually ironing from both sides at once.

•Progress from articles or garments needing the lowest temperature to those requiring the highest.

•To prevent collars, cuffs, and hems from puckering, iron them on the wrong side first.

•Iron thick fabrics (like jeans and King Gee's!) on the inside first, then on the outside.

•When pressing badly wrinkled corduroy, hold the iron just above the garment and steam the fabric thoroughly.

•If you don't have a sleeve board, insert a rolled-up towel in sleeves so they can be pressed without leaving creases.

­•Quick spray starch can be made at home by slowly adding 1 tablespoon cornflour to 2 cups water. Stir until the starch is dissolved, and pour the blend into a clean spray bottle. Spray fabrics lightly when ironing.

Maybe it is my form of OCD?

But I feel better for having ironed. Simple.

Saturday, 26 June 2010

Bad shit

Yesterday was a weird day.

I felt very lost and vulnerable .

I still do.

I watched Dr Phil for the first time in long while, whilst I ironed, and it was an episode on "Moms Who Drink". (I am not a mother that drinks. But I am the daughter of a mother that drinks. Hence my morbid misery interest.)

It was scary.

And of course I know that Dr Phil will always present the extreme. But I guess it is a mark of my current state of mind that I started to freak out and fret that I will morph into a Mom That Drinks.

(The sane and intellectual bit of my brain know s that this will never ever happen. But the sad scaredy bit of my brain says "You probably will. Look at the pattern of generations behind you. All alco mums fell into it somehow.")

Enough of that.

I did, however, also end up eating way too much junk funk food.......something I haven't done since forever.......

I scoured the house and ate a mountain of carbs. A box of Delites, a bowl of cereal, a bowlful of cashews. A bag of chippies. Inhaled. Binged.

And the thing that is scary about that is not what I ate or how it affects a weeks weigh in, but the fact that it was all emotional eating: I was not hungry at all. And I knew it. And I chose to not care, and eat all that crap anyway.....

Along with a glass of wine, and you can only imagine how utterly crap I feel this morning: literally like I have a hangover.

I guess today is a new day and I simply move on.

Headache and all.

(I have just proof read this post. If I am binge eating and watching Dr Phil whilst ironing and fretting about alcoholism, I am in a bad way. I shall continue to post and continue to blog. Not sure how much sense I am gonna make though, 'till this passes.......)

Friday, 25 June 2010

A bit lost......, that is.

I am working through some stuff, that is just making me want to run away and hide and get lost.

I feel like a cranky bitch.

I feel like all the walls closing in on my brain before I can even begin to unravel thoughts and feelings.

And right now, I feel like I am being dragged through concrete, and all I want to do is chuck a tanty.

It is all weight/diet/emotional eating related.

I just wish I could escape my own brain for a while, y'know?

I usually have all the tools to get out of a grey / blue period.

These tools are evading me too.


Thursday, 24 June 2010

Fat to Fit, Week 8

It's Fat to Fit time again! Last week saw 30 lovely blogs link up, and they were all interesting and inspiring.........

If you would like to join in this blog hop, please read the following -

The rules are:

1.Follow my blog (if you haven't already done so).

2.Get the "Fat to Fit" button/code from below by copying the code and posting via the Edit HTML tab into your diet/weight loss post: if anyone wants any help with how to do this, lemme know?

3.Add the URL to your diet/weight loss/healthy eating/exercise/fitness post POST in the Linky below (not your homepage: the actual post)

4. Copy the blog hop code from below into your post too.....then you are also hosting the exact same blog hop link list...

5. Follow at least one other blogger.....share the love, and comment!

6. The blog hop list will open every Thursday and will be open all week.

7. A new and fresh link list will open every Thursday. (And then, if you want, you can link up again with another diet/weight loss/healthy eating/exercise/fitness post.)


Wednesday, 23 June 2010

A slightly heathier take on Eggy Toast

As a child, my mother cooked us breakfast every morning. Poor woman. But before school, every day, we had cereal, and a cooked item such as beans on toast, some kegeree, a boiled egg and soldiers, or some eggy toast.

Eggy toast, fried in dripping, no less.

And whilst I am never going to prepare my kids a cooked breakfast, nor am I likely to ever start frying up in beef fat, I am keen on dishing up eggy toast to my three beautiful little tackers, if for no other reason that bread and eggs and tomato all go together so deliciously, and are a healthy low GI option for them. And eggy toast is a nice thing...for a substantial lunch.

So, I experimented a little, and grilled eggy toast works! Yep, grilled!

A slightly healthier take on Eggy Toast

4 eggs
1/2 cup milk
8 slices bread
Salt and pepper
Cherry tomatoes

  • Preheat the grill. Spray the rack with a little spray oil.
  • Lightly whisk eggs on a plate. Add milk and salt and pepper, and whisk to combine.
  • Soak the bread in the eggy mixture.
  • Place eggy bread onto the grill pan and grill the whole lot until browned and crispy: about 2 minutes each side.
  • Serve the eggy toast with cherry tomatoes
(Tomato sauce, as always for a household of children, an optional but popular extra!)

Would your kids go for a little bit of this?

Tuesday, 22 June 2010

New exercise schedule!

Lovely husband is a fit and active person.

He has no food issues. He eats what he wants, whenever he wants. He is the same weight now as he was when he was 18. According to the WiiFit, he has a perfect BMI and perfect balance.

(Lucky bastard, that's all I can say...)

BUT..........he is getting on a bit. He is forty. Old. (Although he is not as old as me. As he will frequently point out!)

And he is still as passionate about cricket now as he was in his teens. (Just not as youthful as agile.)

He plays for our local cricket club, in the A Grade.

He is a batsman and he also keeps wicket. And whilst I don't think Adam Gilchrist ever lost any sleep over the competition, Andrew is, all bias aside, a handy club cricketer.

I suspect, however, that at his age, his is becoming aware that he does not want to become the "fat old git that we keep on the side out of pity".

So, Andrew has taken up with my personal trainer, and whilst he tells me he doesn't exactly enjoy her sessions, he enjoys the results she gets out of him. (I can relate. Entirely.) He wants to really get fit, so that he can play better cricket.

ANYWAY, all this has lead to scheduling tugs of war!

Normally, it is ME that gets pick of all the sessions I want. It is ME that leaves the house unencumbered to run or walk or go to group personal training, whilst Andrew looks after the kids........

But now we are negotiating over time slots!

(And whilst this takes a little getting used to, I am secretly thrilled. I love him. I want him fit, for longevity's sake. He and I smoked for too long and have taken our robust good health for granted for too long. I am chuffed to bits that he has chosen to get really fit.) regime for next term looks like this:

Monday 6am - Group Personal Training (Cardio and strength)
Tuesday lunchtime - At home work out 
Weds 7.30pm - Long slow distance run (half marathon training)
Thursday 6am - iPod intervals
Friday - Rest Day
Saturday - 40 min swim
Sunday - 9km walk

All this fitness's become a family affair, I tell you.........

Monday, 21 June 2010

Point and Shoot - Dropping Kisses

A very good friend of mine has had a new baby recently.

I am clucky, obviously.

But not as much as my son, Charlie.

He, quite simply, fell in love with the new little baby girl. And held her for an hour or two. And fed her. And smelled her downy head. And dropped kisses on her head too.

He is so gentle. I am so proud of my little boy.

This is my point & shoot for the weekend.......pop over to Fat Mum Slim if you want to see more.......

The sleep before midnight.....

From early morning to lunchtime and into the evening, on Facebook and blogs and Twitter, I am one of many many friends and contacts that are tired and need more sleep.

It is probably the common cry, the golden thread, that links all my real life and blog and internet friends.

I have lost count of the times I have sent someone virtual hugs and prayed that individuals get some sleep, for fear of them descending into total meltdown.

Hell, I have posted it about it a fair handful of times too......

And of course I know that this craving for more sleep, and lack of it, goes with the territory of small children and too much social networking temptation.

The old proverb of "One hours sleep before midnight's worth two hours after" there any truth in it, do you think?

And equally, does sleep help you lose weight? Or if you don't get enough sleep, does this prevent you from losing weight?

(You can see now, how and why, my curiosity in this sleep business is piqued!)

It seems that there may be a bit of truth in the old proverb, and that is it more than just an old wives tale:

The liver is crucial to the body's energy cycle.  The liver follows the cycle of the sun. When the sun goes down in the evening, the liver wants you to rest, as the liver needs its own rest, in order to to store up sugars (glycogen) to be used for energy for the next days activities.

With me so far?

When we stay up late at night, we stuff around with our liver’s natural rhythm. We muck up it's groove. And in turn, we stuff up our own metabolism. If we stay up too late, we force the liver to keep going, and so it's unable to get on with the job of storage of glycogen. Instead, by staying up after dark,  we force the liver to dip into our existing glycogen stores, to break down the glycogen for a burst of energy that we need NOW.

We get a second wind, a burst of sugar in our blood stream, (and so happily blog and Twitter for another few hours......) and yet what we are really doing is depleting our energy for the next day. Going into energy overdraft. Maxing out the energy credit limit before pay day, so to speak.

Our liver doesn't get the time or opportunity to store up the glycogen it needs for the next day, and so the next day we have a liver that is depleted of glycogen. Our body then requires us to release stress hormones from our adrenal glands to keep us functioning. These hormones act to provide more sugar in the blood, but they also accelerate our heart rate, increase our blood pressure, and suppress our immunity so that we get poorly more easily. (And send us craving sugar and carbs........).

So whilst the stress hormones do give us energy, it is like the understudy to the real deal. Emergency use only. If we use this method to source our energy all the time, we get run down and sick. And we are tempted to eat crap. And we are STILL tired.

They say that any sleep you get before midnight is restorative and counts for double. I reckon they might be right.

SO, from today I am going to set myself a little challenge.

I cannot, sadly, get to bed at sunset, as this would mean leaving my kids to get their own dinner and bath themselves and read their own stories.(And whilst this is tempting, I had better not risk them being left to their own devices?)

BUT, I am going to make a concerted effort to get to bed before 9.30pm at the latest at least 3 nights a week. Use myself as a test case?

I'll let you know how I go..............

Saturday, 19 June 2010

Saturday Song...

I know it is a decade old. (Feck, that makes me feel so old. How does a decade just evaporate like that?!)

I know it is cheesy boy band pop.

But I heard this song again this morning, and I just really like it.

Friday, 18 June 2010

Flowers for Friday

Inspired by my flowers last Friday, I have done the same again this week, to bring some cheer to my kitchen, and to my mood.

Daffodils, orange poppies and white and green freesias this week. (Cost me a small fortune. I fear I got a little carried away.) Can you imagine how amazingly they smell? The scent of the freesias is stunning.

The sight if them lifts my heart a little, every time I see them.

20:20:20 Week 7

I'll be totally frank, and tell you that I have had a shite week.

House guests and my diet do not make good companions.

My parents in law have been staying.

This has lead to:

  • Day trips out = lack of planned meals
  • Having food in the house for their tastes not mine
  • Cooking for their needs, not mine
  • They have been kind enough to babysit for us, so lovely husband and I have had the opportunity to go out for dinner, which was indulgent.
  • I have been driven for the need to "reward" myself for being daughter in law of the year by eating crap
  • I have not been able to exercise to my usual levels
So I am not even blaming them. It just shows me that when I am feeling in control, I am find it easy to stick to my plan.

When I have guests, I feel like I do not have control and I cheat and slacken off.

So....................I kind of feel like like I have run the gauntlet.

But, 'tis done now, they have gone, I have to go and do a search and find for some renewed commitment.........

I was reticent to weigh in. But I did.

At this stage I have stayed the same:

I say 'at this stage' for I fear that I may pay next week too for this weeks eating.

We shall see..........

Thursday, 17 June 2010

Fat to Fit (Week 7)

It's Fat to Fit time again! Last week saw 30 blog hoppers linking up, and the posts were all wonderful.

If you would like to join in this blog hop, please read the following -

The rules are:

1.Follow my blog (if you haven't already done so).

2.Get the "Fat to Fit" button/code from below by copying the code and posting via the Edit HTML tab into your diet/weightloss post: if anyone wants any help with how to do this, lemme know?

3.Add the URL to your diet/weightloss/healthy eating/exercise/fitness post POST in the Linky below (not your homepage: the actual post)

4. Copy the blog hop code from below into your post too.....then you are also hosting the exact same blog hop link list...

5. Follow at least one other blogger.....share the love, and comment!

6. The blog hop list will open every Thursday and will be open all week.

7. A new and fresh link list will open every Thursday. (And then, if you want, you can link up again with another diet/weightloss/healthy eating/exercise/fitness post.)


Wednesday, 16 June 2010

Day Off.......

In laws are gone.

I can breath again.

So I am taking the day off.

Me and my Lexie girl are going to go for a long walk together, then maybe go to the swings together,
then come home and nap together.

Monday, 14 June 2010

Shopping List

Can you believe it??

Thirty Million Dollars

Oz Lotto, Tuesday

I am the winner........obviously

So my to do list / shopping list is:

Pay off this, for us, and all our families:

Renovate both the kitchen:

and bathrooms:

Indulge in one of these:

And get a new one of these:

And buy this holiday shack. (Not just any old holiday shack: this one specifically. It is in a magical and isolated spot right on the beach. I have coveted it for years. It is mine........)

That's all. What would YOU like? ( I just won $30 Million. Tell me. I'm buying...............)