Friday, 9 January 2009

Deliverance

This time of year is one of resolutions. This week, two years ago, I gave up smoking after twenty seven years of the filthy habit.

It was, in all honestly, the very best thing I have ever done for my health. Hence me choosing this post for The Weekend Rewind  that Allison of the Pink Fibro graciously hosts...




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I am free.

No panic or fear or that awful empty feeling of deprivation.

Free.

Smoked my final fag today. Made me feel as sick as a dog.






No more. Ever.
I am actually feeling interestingly excited. I almost feel like a fog (a literal one as well as a physical one) has been lifted. And after twenty seven years, it's a relief. A long overdue relief.

I am embarrassed to admit that I am baffled as to why I never chose to ditch this disgusting habit earlier.
I have just read Allen Carr's Easyway to Stop Smoking (It was actually a gift from me to my lovely husband for Christmas. He got to page nine and discarded. I picked it up and read it in an evening. What an utterly marvellous book it is,  for its purpose.)

I am, based on the advice of the book, following Mr Carr's instructions one hundred percent, and so I am also giving up all nicotine and its replacement products. (This also means letting go of the cost of the bloody patches, in dollars and skin rashes.....)

Hello sweet breath, goodbye certain death. Thank you world. I am a non smoker.
Again, I am totally confused as to why this decision took me so long. I managed to not smoke through my pregnancies, and I have never smoked in front of the children. I guess it's a mark of the addiction that I still held onto to the final few cigarettes and the mini holiday I perceived they gave me?

I feel like I have been wearing the highest, most uncomfortable, pinching heels in the history of womankind. And I have finally been allowed to take them off. Ahhhhhh. Sweet blissful deliverance. My mind is free.


(Note: On doing a Google on Allen Carr I realise that he actually died of lung cancer in November of 2006. How very sad. Not me though.)

I know that this will last forever, this quitted business. I cannot tell you how happy I am about that.


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January 2011 update - I am still a non smoker. 2009's resolution was achieved. It's as if I never smoked. I dare say, I am annoyingly evangelical about my anti-smoking. And still proud of it. 

10 comments:

  1. That's fabulous Lucy. Well done :)

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  2. Thats awesome hun:-) Now lets hope the book can really help me :-p

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  3. Thats awesome hun:-) Now lets hope the book can really help me :-p

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  4. life in a pink fibroJanuary 14, 2011

    Yay you! Two years clean. You are a genius. :-) Thanks for Rewinding at the Fibro today.

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  5. I suspect a genius would never have started the evil habit in the first place...:-)

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  6. What a fabulous positive post and message. Go you!

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  7. keepcatebusy (Cate)January 15, 2011

    Yes there's a few things I am annoyingly evangelical about too (ooo, like the joys of strenous exercise...don't get me started!!).
    WELL DONE though on staying off the yucky things though...my kiddos won't feign asthma attacks as they walk past you in the street now (bless 'em!)
    xxxCate

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  8. good on you.

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  9. whooops.... meant to write good on you! yippee!! I gave up about eight years. Feel a whole lot better for it - now to face my food demons x

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  10. Just randomly flicking through your post labels and came across the ones labelled "smoking". I've just written a post about my smoking issues (haven't yet hit the 'publish' button), it's always comforting to read about others' experiences! Good on you for keeping it up for so long, you should give yourself a very large pat on the back!

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