That's leaving us hanging Lucy ;)
Lucy, hon, I don't know what to say. I'm so sorry - it must be an emotional avalanche to be remembering these things which will irrevocably change the way you interact with you family. But I think it's such a positive for you to recognise why you have been sabotaging yourself for so long. It's not your fault, and remembering it doesn't make the turmoil that may ensue your fault either. Hugs to you my sweet.
I am a comment addict. Thank you so much for your words...xx